When Everything Crashes Down Who Will Be There?

So Here I am 27 years old and I wonder this question all the time When you fall down and things don't turn out the way you plan who is there? Are your friends? Maybe a few and only to a certain level. If you are laying face down in a gutter with a needle in your arm who will come for you and bring you home? Would it be your girlfriend or boyfriend? Would your spouse see you through all the tough times? If so you have something really special and need to hang on to it! For most of us we don't like to think of that question, most of us don't see ourselves going that far down in the Dumps. However, drugs and alcohol affect millions of people each and every year people go to rehab and attend meetings they say the ones who really want to get sober will and the rest... Well the rest end up in Jails, Institutions, and Death. I have personally been through some rough experiences and thanks to a loving Mother, Father and sisters I am here today wasting time typing my thoughts from the comfort of a warm bedroom rather than a cold cement Jail cell. I have met some special people along the way. One thing about my family is that we don't always say how we feel often enough. I admit I have a hard time expressing my feelings for those who have picked me up when I have been down to those whose knees are bruised on my behalf from praying daily I thank you the Lord answers prayers! I may not be where I thought I would be at this stage in my life but there is one certainty I am alive I have been on the brink of Suicide and that seemed at the time the only logical answer. I still sit and wonder why I am here left  with the chaos that consumes my brain. But Today I can be grateful for that chaos. I am grateful to feel the emotional pain that once used to send me running full speed into the black abyss whether it was the bottom of a bottle or a hand full of pills anything was always a good idea not to feel. Now I am in a situation where I constantly need to learn patience, I am so used to getting that instant self gratifying experience that being patient is a real struggle fort me. I had a conversation with a good friend the other day and she said something that made me think. She said " you know Jared when things happen quickly and they seem to end just as fast." Wow now there is a real shocker! Am I really just learning this concept? I looked back at my life and I can definitely see spurts of excitement where I was sure I had all my problems solved whether it was from finding a new girl finding religion or even finding sobriety all of those things seem to have so much excitement and hope in the beginning but can tend to fade out just as quickly. Now my life consists of  being ok with being me. Learning that it is ok to sit still and enjoy the little moments in life. I am still finding out that this life is not a sprint but rather a Marathon. Oh how I hate it lol this is the reason I played football and wrestled in high school you have these quick bursts of speed and strength and then you get your payoff. A marathon. Wow that is a lot to take in did I mention I hate running long distances. I guess it is time to retrain my brain and learn to do somethings different. Maybe I will sit here as long as I need to until I figure out what I am supposed to learn then I can go on to the next step. Again to those in my life who have been there when I have been down thanks a million I still might make mistakes so keep praying :) all My love Jared